When I finally sat down behind the mic to record the first episode of The Wisdom Channel™: Bring Love to the Playground™ on August 14th, 2025, it had been over a year since I’d signed on with Transformation Talk Radio®. I thought I would be ready much sooner, but I needed time.
I had more healing to do. More self-worth to build. More permission to give myself before I could share the stories and lessons I carry. And in this first episode, I shared one of the most personal: my relationship with my dad.
The Complexity of Love and Loss
My dad was a man I deeply respected; strong, wise, and someone I learned so much from. He was also someone I clashed with often. Being in the same room could be a toss-up: Would we connect? Will it be a calm meeting? Or would it end in an argument?
When he passed away last year, I thought I was prepared. For over a decade, I had sensed his passing was coming, and I’d already cried countless tears in advance. But when the day came, I pushed through as “the strong one.” I didn’t give myself the time or space to feel it all.
A month later, my body forced me to stop; I had a heart attack. Literally, an attack on my heart. It was my body’s way of saying, No more ignoring this.
Healing from the Other Side of the Glass
The last time I saw my dad alive was in the ICU. Two days before he passed, I went to see him, after a year of silence and no visits, and he didn't want to see me. So I stood at the foot of his bed, separated by a pane of glass, and did the ho‘oponopono prayer;
“I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you.”
It was all I could do; heal the relationship from the other side of the glass.
That night, he came to me in a dream and said, “I didn’t realize you were hurting. I see it now, and I’m sorry.”
Sometimes, healing happens in ways we can’t predict. And sometimes, the relationship becomes easier in spirit than it was in life. My dad even joked with me from the other side, “If I were still alive, we’d still be arguing. This is better, don't you agree?"
The Lessons I Carry Forward
From my dad, I learned to believe in myself even when others tell me I’m wrong. I learned that endings; whether through death, breakups, or being ghosted, require us to turn inward and love ourselves through the messy parts.
We can’t always wait for someone else to acknowledge our pain. We have to give ourselves that acknowledgment.
“We have to trust ourselves before we can trust others. Stop being the people-pleaser and do things that honor you first and foremost.”
Following Intuition
I delayed launching the show for over a year; not because I wasn’t committed, but because my intuition told me, Not yet. I’ve learned to trust that soft, loving voice inside, the one that guides without criticism.
It’s the same voice that nudged me to keep reaching out to my dad even when he didn’t respond, to pray behind the glass, and to share my story when the time was right.
An Invitation for You
If you’re reading this and you’re holding onto unspoken hurt, I invite you to bring love to yourself today, whatever that looks like.
“Choose one thing you’ve always wanted to do and enjoy that. Buy yourself flowers. Go to the beach. Take the trip. Listen to the red flag and honor it.”
Healing isn’t about bypassing pain. It’s about creating space to feel, to listen, and to choose love for yourself in the process.
And if you ever feel like you’re standing on the other side of the glass, unable to reach someone you care about, remember, healing can still happen. Love can still cross the divide.
Until next time, I invite you to keep practicing love for yourself. You've got this!!
The Wisdom Channel™: Bring Love to the Playground™ airs every second and fourth Thursday at 8 a.m. Pacific on Transformation Talk Radio. Watch and listen to replays HERE.
Self-love is the foundation of your happiness. Take one small step today to nurture your beautiful self.
